Thursday, February 1, 2018

Dear mom, I still remember the warm breeze that gently blew on my face as we hung the clean laundry out to dry so many, many times. You would whistle "Red River Valley" or "You Are My Sunshine" which gave me a feeling of comfort and contentment I can't explain.  You were so patient with my little hands grasping the clothes pins and handing them to you and then as I got older, you made sure to instruct me so they didn't get too much of the clothes in them and cause dirt on the ends. Such endless, precious memories. 💙

We would finish up and go in for lunch and talk, then do some more housework, and take the fresh smelling clothes off the line. I loved rubbing my face in the towels and quilts to smell the crisp air fragrance on them. We folded them as we took them down as a time-saver and to this day, I'm still that way. You taught me. Your afternoon cup of coffee was a time I looked forward to as well, cause you gave me windmill cookies to dunk in your coffee and I felt quite grown-up having a little coffee on my cookie. 😊

Well, here it is 15 years since you left this earth for heaven and the days go by but it gets sweeter cause I know I'm going to see you again. Such a wonderful thought but I'm not going to rush this time here as you told me not to come there too soon. Writing my feelings about you just seems to bring me a little closer to you again and reminds me of how you loved my writing and poems. Hope you can see this blog, Mom, and smile a little on me. I can see it in my mind. Love and miss you...💓

Wednesday, April 20, 2016

I can't sleep and realize that the month of May is just ahead and memories of you flood my mind. The years have flown by and I think about you daily my precious mother. A song comes to me in that you used to whistle often throughout my childhood and now when I hear you whistling it in my head, it brings comfort to my longing heart to be with you once again. That day will come and as you said on your death bed, "you have to come here but not too soon" and I have not forgotten you saying that to me. I need to live in the now, let God heal the trauma of my past and bring Him glory all the days of my life here on earth. Someday, I will be there with Jesus and you, mom. What a day that will be! I know that this song meant a lot to you and I understand why now. Love for your children is the closest thing to God's love and so unconditional. Life is all about love and relationship. Thank you for teaching me that so deeply, mom. See you soon..xoxo

You are my sunshine
My only sunshine
You make me happy
When skies are grey
You'll never know, dear
How much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away
The other night, dear
As I lay sleeping
I dreamt I held you in my arms
When I awoke, dear
I was mistaken
So I hung my head and cried
You are my sunshine
My only sunshine
You make me happy
When skies are grey
You'll never know, dear
How much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away
Please don't take my sunshine away

Saturday, May 9, 2015

A Tribute to My Beloved Mother in Heaven

Dear mother,

I think of you daily and so many things that I do remind me of you. The smell of bacon and eggs cooking on a Saturday morning or the lilacs and lily of the valley blooming remind me of you picking some for the kitchen table from your own yard. The silly things I laugh at and how hard I love my children and grandchildren, all remind me of you. The way you took care of dad and fixed him meals when he came home from work is instilled in me as I embrace my married life once again. You are here in my heart and there in heaven and someday I will laugh with you again and hug you like there is no tomorrow. Your absence makes me grow fonder each year more and more. Thank you for the beautiful lessons of being a loving mother, wife and caring for your fellow man. I am inspired to be what you were by the grace of God. <3 nbsp="" p="">

Each mother's day is a reminder but really, every day is mother's day in my heart as you never died, you just moved to another country to live with the Lord and our family in heaven. More have joined you since that beautiful May morning in 2003 and more will join you in Jesus' heaven, but until then I will write about you, sing about you and teach my children and grandchildren about their wonderful grandmother who left us with a great legacy of life, love and laughter. Till we meet again...your daughter. xoxoxo

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Happy Easter!

Long time of not posting here!

It's funny how time slips away from you when life is going good and you can stay busy! My health is better now and I have 14 grandchildren so that alone is enough to keep me busy. Ha ha..I love them dearly and feel very blessed. I now know what my mother felt having all those precious children come over on a Sunday or holiday. 

The fond memories of mom come back to me each holiday and Easter is just around the corner so it floods my mind of the happy days when mom would take time time to cut up pieces of paper and write little rhymes of where to find the candy eggs. I could hardly stand to go to bed on the Eve of Easter because of those handwritten notes that mom made for us. How she must have laughed along with my dad when coming up with them! 

"There is something pink, hiding under the sink, Go look for the candy green by the washing machine and it's all white sitting by something bright."

My mother loves games, played them with us kids and the grand-kids all of her days on earth and this was right up her alley.  I miss you mom and a day does not go by that something reminds me of you!

The Easter food was awesome as well because I could smell it cooking from my bedroom and after the candy hunt, we would dig into it with joy. Our basket was always at the end of the hunt and the big trophy with lots of neat things in it. Baked ham smells wafted through the house and if the weather was nice, we would go outside for a hunt so the other fragrance of my moms beloved hyacinths would consume us with heavenly outside fragrances.

My kids got to do their candy egg hunt after church and often times they had an egg hunt at church too so that was just about as good as Christmas to them.

Now I spend the day with my wonderful hubby in church and then out to dinner since we make Sunday our go out to eat time. I love seeing all the kids enjoying this day but most of all I enjoy what my Lord and mother did for me to make it so special!  Now she is with Him in heaven and I will someday join that party which I can only imagine how it is on the special day of First Fruits, the true meaning of Easter. Enjoy the season everyone, He is risen!

Saturday, November 24, 2012

Holiday Memories of Mom

Dear Mom,  it is two days past Thanksgiving and 26 months of this skin affliction that is taking its toll on me mentally, emotionally and physically. I just want it to stop and go away forever as I had eczema as a child and now this?

 Life seems to hard at times and I so miss you up there in heaven at the party you described to me so well as you were leaving this world. Holidays are hard..I love being with my kids and we reminisce about Grandma's peanut butter balls, pecan fingers, chocolate covered cherries and your happy spirit that cheered everyone up.

 I sooo miss you much. I remember how sad you were when dad when home to Jesus and you lost the joy of the holidays and didn't care if you put up the Christmas tree. I ended up talking you into it when the boys and I lived with you. We enjoyed that Christmas and you were not sick and actually had family living in the home to enjoy again.

 Mom, I am now living that lonely life and have little desire to put up the tree, and you know what a decorating person I am for the holidays. I did find a little tree for my bedroom and put lights all around the bottom of the dresser with candles and garland. It is pretty and makes me think about the light of Jesus and how wonderful heaven must be.

 I love the meaning of Christmas and focus on that and just worship my King whom you are in the presence of every day.

 Wow.... I will do my best to die to self-pity and enjoy the days I am here with this skin hell and would you just peek in on me now and then, or better yet, just sit by me like you used to when I was sick? I know you can't come to earth, but somehow maybe an angel can come in your place and bring your love with?

 I love you mom and will see you soon, but I have my wonderful children and 12 grandchildren now. You said not to come there too soon and once I am healed, I will be back to the hospital and nursing homes and wherever the Good Lord leads me to sing and minister out of my own brokenness to the broken people of this world. Enjoy the party mom and save me some chocolate cause in heaven..I won't have a reaction to it! :) xoxoxoxo

P.S. Do they do the Hokey Pokey in heaven? You probably are the queen of it! xoxoxo

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Mother's Day 2012

Happy Mother's Day mom. I know you enjoyed it much more in heaven than I have on earth this past year. I've been sick and really missing you and just homesick for heaven. I have to trust God to heal me and keep me here until my time comes. You said not to come  there too soon,so I will hold to your words and try to praise God through it all. Love and miss you! 

Thursday, February 16, 2012

My life took a sharp turn since August, as I had stopped using topical steroid cream for my eczema as of April 2011 and by September 2011, my body got very sick from the addiction of using it for 40 years on my hands, never realizing I was poisoning my body so much.
I am now in my 11th month of the withdrawals and have been too sick to do much of anything but lay in my bed, scratch terribly and have insomnia for months. I've had to use medications almost daily since September for the itching and pins and needles from my nerves waking up in my skin. I cannot even describe this whole journey and hope that I turn a corner soon and feel good enough to go without daily medication and the itching stops.

I so miss my mother during this time as she would have helped to take care of me, but I would not have wanted her to see me cry so much and itch like this. She is in heaven, praying for me and I do believe that I will recover sooner than the 1-3 years predicted. Please say a prayer for me and thank you for visiting my blog about my precious mother. God bless everyone! ~Joey